lundi 20 avril 2020

Dear Corona, you the virus. Thank you - "Part III "-



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Since the 18th of March 2020 I have been in a very weird lock-down. Alone between 4 walls. i started to talk to them and hahah they will answer me soon. 
I thank you dear Corona virus yes, because you are sill teaching:
-It thought me, this introspection, thought me  to concentrate on myself, YES TO BE EGOIST FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE. I understood that it is OKAY and not a SIN to put oneself and our well being before others.
I lived a life thinking of others before myself. The good functioning of Work, Community, Family, partner, colleagues, friends... at the expense of  my personal, financial mental and physical health..


I gave without asking in any field any parameter any question any request: time money feeling empathy... from my own last penny to last energy to the last single minutes and time of sleep to help others and for the causes and “kiam” I believed in.

Never cheated, never lied, never used and always refused to add my name on a paper scientific publication that I barely worked on. I always worked with full intergrity. Always shared everything I had ith other.
Never sold love where there was no. Never accomplished a duty without passion. Never had unfinished business.

Thinking and believing that this is how it should be!

- It turned out that I got it all wrong! Principals are not from this world. Or let me say NOT THOSE PRINCIPALS

No, FATHER, NO . No Abdo Nehmé, NO and a million of Nos. “ نحنا مش أقل العالم "
You raised me, you raised always to be humble to stay humble and this fucking sentence “we are the least blablabla” NO I AM NOT.
Abdo, I saw mediocrity I am seeing sick people, I am dealing with ugly very low people. And nearly a decade from now.

Let me tell you about myself for extra-curicula.... “
I initiated the first regular quasi weeklly astro tv segment in the arabic world on TV. I maintained consistency in worshops for astro-worshops for kids, initiated astropainitng for kids, initiated the ASTRO AlephB cafe scientifque , intiated the “pose ta question a DrCy”, from the LOCKDown , I created the “ let's take you out of the confiment “ #staysanewithDrCy , I paid from my own money the 11days world space week 2019 3events/ day for 11 days as in opposite banch of losers stopped a big project for lebanon, I gained 30 million lebanese pounds I just got 40 percent of It I paid from my own money the assist. research to publishe th e second paper, I was chosen to be part of astronaut as a woman as an arab etc etc... and for the other academic stuff you can see my CV.
But seems the problem is I am an independent woman, hardworker ,single, and in harmony not hypocrite.
I am an active Lebanese french Woman PhD Holder, worked at NASA/ Goddard, at CEA, CNRS... Tell ME what and who are they... what are their achievements …
So NO : أنا مني أقل العالم

- I learned also, that on this earth we have two kind of people, maybe three.
The creative person, the neutral and the destructive the killer the humilator no level no book readers no mental and intellectual. No more concession. I am for life.  The future is for life beauty and health.

-The AMOUNT of PSHYCO ,i am really serious... poor souls living in a great denial. Encourage by their environment to continue their denial. I have been surrounded by a lot of ill very ill people women and men, but more men around me close and or far circle. I saw their pain I saw they compulsiveness I saw their sickness but refusing to admit it, doing harm to themselves and to others. I always thought, why me. I always wondered why people come and ask me psy questions. Why  people try to harm me why I attract bad vibes or or ..why why why ...And trust me after what happened to me the last 45 days and specially the last 4 event the last 5 days
For that I declare here Two big projects in my three coming years:
A - Writing a book : Men
B - Having a new diploma and be a psychanalist. (il n'est jamais trop tard)

#mayhelpmegod
#staysanewithDrCy


#DrCy
#lacrabuleuse
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dimanche 19 avril 2020

Let's GO ... Gravitation-less with #DrCy and @letsgraduate





Didn't worked upside down ooopsss
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• • • • • •
ISS
OOPS! We lost gravity with #DrCy!! Our Lebanese NASA expert, @dr.cyrinenehme is taking us in a Gravitation-less session to talk about the life in ISS! How does it feel like to swim a free ball in the sky! History and death, advantages and disadvantages, and way way more!
Friday, April 24, 2020 | 12-1PM
Limited seats | first come, first seated
DM or call +96176650835 so we can share our ID with you
#gravitationless #extrascientific #astronomy #astronauts #sciencegeekrule #nasa #planets #iss #scienceandbeyond #stemeducation #DrCy #letsgraduate #letsgraduateclub #livelovegrad #womeninscience #womeninastrophysics 




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Dear Corona, you the virus.... Thank you - Part II -

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For those who believed in me
#cheers
For those who supported me
#cheers
For those who loved me and still
#cheers
For those who insulted me and humiliated me
those who used me and abused me with words or any other adventures
#cheers and #thank you
#Thank you #covid-19 you made them demonstrate their true nature

I thank you women and men the closest and farthest , my "heart-breakers" and others  for showing me, your true colors.
For those who are supporting me now, and didn't let  me go , you are the real #noblesse , I  LOVE  YOU

Each one of you already was contacted
Thank you elegant souls

#DrCy
#lacrabuleuse

lundi 30 mars 2020

Dear Corona, you the virus.... Thank you - Part I -




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Slowing the pace! Staying alone! in, literally the space between 4 faces of a squared room, is a great challenge. 
Slowing the pace! will turn out to be much needed, as Amin Maalouf said in one of our discussions.
Everything is is Static, Still, Silent ... But You! 
Instead of running away from you, you take your scope, you calibrate, you align, you start to observe "The Self".

Far from the crowd, the meetings, other's voices, other's vibes,  smell, shit, lies, crimes, music, .... you just observe  "The Self". 

Yes, it was about time to decrease the pace, to cool down. 

I discovered and still discovering several things in me, inner me, outer me   and in the others.

- I am actually sleeping. I think my mind and soul are wondering if they have been plugged into a different body. The amount of sleep they are having is unprecedented. 
- My liver is indeed very grateful. Being at rest, rejuvenating. Having its one life  time break :-) mazel tov! I am drinking water and abusing this magical beverage.
Trying to alternate between sparkling and still ... What is left from poor Italy its San Pe. 
- No Cigar nights and the "leaves smell" meditation along with the endless discussions about the origin, the humidity etc... But hey, my skin is loving it, my hair is liking it. My health, for the moment is ... appreciating it. 
                                                                                              (to be continued)

#lacrabuleuse
#DrCy


vendredi 27 mars 2020

He used to call her "Crazy"

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[He said:
I used to call her “crazy” , But now I realize that she was simply a woman fighting hard for Love; for ME.
And now, I would do anything to get “crazy” back.]



It has been said, you don't know what you've got until it is gone. The truth is, you knew exactly what you had. You just didn't think that you were going to loose it.
You kept pushing her away, you kept kicking her because you knew that she will come back running to you, out of love. The way you do is same as checking the strength of a boat by making holes in it.
One moment, the boat will sink... One day, she won't come back.
When she gave you her time, she was giving a portion of her life that she will never get back. She was trying to open your eyes and asking you to appreciate what you have, before it turns into what you had! Regrets if any will not help anyone.

But NO! You kept on, and insisting on taking her for granted.

After deep thought, you didn't love her. You didn't want to be alone. Or, maybe maybe she was just good for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better, alive in you miserable self-loosing life. But you didn't love her.
Because you don't destroy people you love.

The victim stance, dear , is a very powerful one. The victim is always morally right, neither responsible nor accountable and FOREVER entilted to sympathy.
Hey, don't play victim for circumstances that you created and she was begging you to stop abusing moments. You know what, people learn from their mistakes if they weren't busy denying them.

What is the purpose of playing the victim card? What is the purpose of playing like all women are evil? What is the purpose of fooling yourself and the others? Open your eyes and admit that, because of your behavior, long but sure calm insults, because of your insecurities and over possessiveness that you of course reject, you ruined it... your ruined the relation.

She was wondering for how long you plan on playing the victim? Even the longest acts in theatres have a time limit. But she presumes your self-pity seems to have none.
She is very aware that some people act weak or victimized so they can manipulate others into catering to them. She got played … But she is out now!

She loved you, you kept on pushing her ad kicking her back!
Be responsible and accept.

She is mature very indeed. She learned to walk away from people and situations that threaten her peace mind, self-respect, values, morals or self worth. She has class, elegance, education and high standards at its best.

#lacrabuleuse
#DrCy


jeudi 26 mars 2020

Dear Life, Universe ... i hate you




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Dear Life, Universe, Lord,
I will not ask you why because you never answer this question. But can I please beg you to stop torturing me. I cannot handle it any more. I am on my knees, my shoulders are broken. They cannot carry pain and challenges no more.
I am not even trying to understand what is the purpose of all those tests you put me through, Crushing me, squashing me … Isn’t it enough? Are you satisfied or not yet
Are you still hunger for my tears, my sorrow my distress?

Whatever project: personal, work, social etc... I undertake I initiate, you will make sure to put struggles in front of my face. No, more than this. You make sure to get the heck out of me and pulverize me with the problems you  put in my route.

I give hope to others, I am positive and I am an example to many women and men I am I am I am I am …
Dead!

Are you happy now! I cannot give hope to those I used to.... I cannot be an example to young women and men as I was always convinced that one can pursue her or his dream and life will return It back positively!

No I was fool, big time.
No one see your achievements, worse they try to step on you suffocate you, choke you and kill your dreams.
No one loves you the love I used to think that exists, no one sees through you, the real you, no one is proud of you, no one and nothing will MAKE IT UP for you.
You are  left by your own,  lonely sad and hopeless...

Life, Universe … Today I declare: I hate you
And dear Lord: STOP


#DrCy
#lacrabuleuse 

dimanche 8 mars 2020

au nom de la compassion la tenacite la clairvoyance et la serenite

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homme, 
tout ce que tu fais est autorise, sans regrets
pauvre ame, toujours excuses trouvees
femme, n'a droit qu'aux reproches ordonnees
le moindre questionnement est severement reprime

des cris des chahutements gravement maquilles
par des accusations habilement pensees

malheur a celle qui oserait simplement refuser
manieres, comportement attitude et procedes
calamite, catastrophe et desastre sur elle tomberaient

si par moment 
le refus, la revolte ou meme un soupir elle manifesterait

femme, dans la bouche , sa langue soustrait 
femme, par le silence et patience distrait
au nom de la compassion la tenacite la clairvoyance et la serenite

Femmes
je vous declare mon amour inconditionel
en cette journee intemporelle
ou beaucoup d'entre vous sont toujours severement opprimees

#DrCy
#lacrabuleuse